17 days until I have the procedure...yea?

Well it has been far too long since my last post and boy have things changed. My brother died Dec 10th and my father died 11 days ago. It has been a very long and difficult yet oddly rewarding experience. My focus can now shift from them to me and my goal in trying to get healthy and stay healthy so I do not suffer the fate that my brother and father endured. Their death will certainly not be in vain. I need it to make sense because if it doesn't I feel as if all hope may be lost. Basically, my coping mechanism is too try to give meaning to their lives and deaths. It is necessary for me to learn and recognize that if I don't implement a change and fast that history is bound to repeat itself. I will not suffer the same fate...it is too unfair.
With that being said, I had my "reveal" with the TOGA study and I DID NOT have the procedure. Surprise...not. I am actually glad that I was not chosen to have it at that time because I have researched a lot about the results of the study and I can tell you that mistakes were made and protocols were changed to remedy them...all good. I feel very comfortable moving forward and having the real TOGA because I am ready to commit to this. I have purchased a BODY BUGG and joined Gold's Gym. The BUGG is truly a revolutionary must have item for all people who want to lose weight. I had no idea how many calories a day I needed to burn to lose a pound but now I do. It is very cool to see how active you are or aren't during the day and how your body operates and burns calories.
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